Changes

Tomorrow morning, after about an hour of acid level action and jamming out the door, my life begins a new chapter. I will be alone for six hours and twenty minutes, five days a week. This freedom for the low price of sending my babies off to be taught, nurtured, disciplined, attended to by a teacher and about 20 of their counterparts. :(. I remember when there were days I dreamt about such a time in my life...some just during the past three months of summer (we survived). Now that it's here my heart is screaming, hold the phone, please wait, it's all happened too fast. And then there are the nagging questions. Is Hannah too young to be a Kindergartner and at school for so long? Will Laura make friends and be happy and not die over the stinking fcat? Will Cole handle being separated from the majority of his friends who are all in a class together? I didn't imagine the stress of the weight of these questions and my perusing into Florida virtual school, but alas it's true. It's not something we'll jump into lightly, the summer is too fresh on our minds :), but it's defintiely a consideration which I would've never anticipated.

I'm going to miss them so much and worry about them, for them. I keep going back to the fact that I made it through and if I baby them, then what happens when the real world comes knockin..and it will.

But I'm excited for the good things school brings and I'm not so foolish not to be excited for myself and the time I'll have (when I'm not subbing or working at target).

Here's back to school tidbits:

Cole is the one most dreading school. So tonight I said, "Ok, Cole what if I tell you we're pulling you out, you'll be homeschooled, starting tomorrow." He said all disgruntled and torn "I need the playground and my friends here and I'm good". I said, "Your friends will be at school." He replied, "I need something bad to happen to the school." :) Always has a plan that guy.

Laura has been a quiet ball of nerves, she's expressed her anxieties over random things and pretty much internalizes everything and then explodes over the little stuff, but once she's done exploding for a little bit she's good. She should be good for a while now. :) She said on the way to church this morning, "I don't want to be the middle child." She couldn't cite me an example of how this a bad thing, she just knows it is. I do rely on her a lot and am so appreciative of her help. She's the child I'm having the hardest time sending. :(

Tonight Hannah asks me for the third time to lay down with her, she'd been pinging off the walls for much of the evening. As I lay down with her, again (cause tomorrow's the first day of school and I'm a sucker) she says, "This time Mommy, lay down with me for a long time" I say " I'll lay down with you for a little time". Pause "Mommy, a little time is not even a word".

Here's a pic of Cole and Laura meeting Hannah when she was born, the day before Cole started Kindergarten. Time has flown and the song is true.."you're I gonna miss this".

My kids :)

don't wanna forgettables..

Cole thinks 103 degrees is great weather!

Hannah calls people different things when she's correcting them...(hard to explain)
My mom asked for another kiss and hug and Hannah said "you already got one missy!", her tone adds to the humor. She called Laura, cowboy girl and young lady in the same tone today. It's really cute.

Hannah got her kindergarten shots today and was like whatever. The first shot she laughed through and then she was stunned for the next three but she made it. But still gave that look of why would anyone do this to another person look.

Laura did not want to be in the room while Hannah was getting her shots and she waited outside. I didn't know she was squeamish about these things.

Laura's learning to jump rope, it's really cute and we have to watch her do it every attempt. She's up to 15 consecutive jumps.

Hannah sings..all the time. she make ups songs, she makes up songs to church tunes. She sings sentences that she would say to me.
She's doing it right now..
"he stoled it and
the sneaky man took this away a long time ago"
while holding a lego airplane.

Hannah says her name will be Crystal Lemonade when she's 17.

Cole reads as much as he breaths.

Laura can make a ponytail in her hair and is rightly very proud!

They all love their dad very much and I can't blame them.

In honor of father's day here some of thing they love about him...
Cole...
he loves and cares about us
he takes his time with us
he helps us with learning

Laura...
he plays with me
he tells me stories at night whenever I want one
he goes to work for us

Hannah
I like to tickle with him and tuggle with him and play rolly polly
and snuggle
and eat with him
have fun with him
and learn about the Holy Ghost with him

Cole Ps Stories

Cole has been writing for a long time. He used to make little books and write stories. He's come up with some creative stuff in school lately so I decided to document them. This is just a start...

http://cpsstories.blogspot.com/

St. Augustine

on our way home from Orlando we popped through St. Augustine, hit the beach for a little bit and the whatever fort is there. Cole, my history fan, loved it. We did learn some cool stuff about the psychological warfare they used. I need some psychological warfare.

pooped out

educating us

kids didn't mind playing in the water w/o suits

more vacating

the fireworks were amazing

giddy with exhaustion

racin'

dancing at disney

Dumbo

Vacating

Ryan, Andrea and the kids came down to do Disney and other fun Florida things with us...here are pics in reverse order and more to come to prove it... dancing at Disney a Hannah sized door

feeling Singing in the rain? Ryan obliged

no comments or autographs

the disc landed on the zero

a beached pixie

shuffleboarding

ugghh

not the picture perfect post.. Has it been said lately that parenting is really, really hard? I guess the president has some tough decisions, but no doubt parents are at least on level with that position. It's the thing I thought I'd be really good at. Love 'em, squeeze 'em, help 'em along. I used to think things were hard when they were so young as babies and I'm pretty sure people told me it would get easier. Well, they were wrong. The difficulties change, but really only get more difficult. And we are so hitting pre-teen early and SO.NOT.FUN! I realize this may not be the case for everyone and I'm happy for you if so. Over here, it's hanging by a thread. back to the picture perfect posts...